Friday, July 31, 2009
@ 8:15 PM
Her: Are you fetching me from school tomorrow, b?
Him: Errr, don't think so uh.
Her: Huh, why?!
Him: 'Cause I might need to go down to mama's workplace for a job interview.
Seriously, like seriously, her heart felt fishy from then on. It's like hello he is literally using his mom as an excuse again to escape to somewhere. So, anyway, she decided to believe him cause yeah she knew his mom's work place is in need of staffs so yeah.
However, little did she know she was right from the very start :)
She told herself, a friend of hers and even posted a status on facebook saying "why is it that I feel something not right is about to happen today? sigh"
Eventually, it happened.
After she learnt about a gig that was gonna be held at ITE Clementi, she told herself again, "I swear he'll end up himself there."
And guess what? He was there enjoying the fuck out of himself.
Why is she mad when she had already compromised not to control?, you people wonder.
"Sape kate I nak gi gig tu, da jauh"
So she wonders who in the mother fucking world said that to her!?
"Tak la apape mane2 I gi I akan bilangnye"
So she wonders again why around 2+ his hp was switched off!? Hence, she called people whom she knew will be there. Found the culprit, he passed his hp to him.
"My prepaid low", he said.
Wah, this reason power to the max sia. Prepaid low then how the fk he got his way all the way to Clementi? Prepaid low then how the fk he contacted his boys. How the fk how the fk?!!!!
So now she learns, prepaid low = can get through friends but not girlfriend.
Obviously, she burst. She couldn't tolerate anymore! Like come on, how many times? How many times must he fool her?
Then he said, "come on luh b, don't be unreasonable can?"
WAH FUCK! who the fk is he to call her unreasonable? who the fk made her this way? who the fk misused her trust? who the fk who the fk who the fk, fk!
A simple phone call just to let her know he's gg there, that difficult?!
So she said, "I'm not at all to blame but you. You started this mess, you've got your fucking self to blame. Don't even think I'll apologise to you because it's time I fight for my rights. Like how you don't want me to step on your head, why the fk are you dg it to me? That's it I don't wanna talk to you and no ndp for us" hungs up.
Few seconds later... a missed call from him but she sort of took her time calling him back.
Her: What you want?
Him: I'm sorry.
Her: Sorry for what? I your friend ah? ... hangs up
He think what? Do mistake (not the first time fuck) then it can always be cured with an apology?
Just for once be in her shoes. She tried so hard to believe what he told her but then look same shit happens all the time right? So, is she to blame? Must she give in and act all okay?
_|_ _|_
Thursday, July 30, 2009
@ 8:49 AM
But then again, she thinks she knows just how important she is in his life.
It's sad to know that she's actually a burden all this while.
Him: I'm sorry, but I don't like to wait.
It's just sad you know. To think that before she could actually wait for him for two solid hours
without even whining or retaliate, he gives black face when asked to wait a little longer. Is it wrong to ask for a little longer company from her own boyfriend? No? Yes? Beats me.
She just need some moral support. Like you know, the feeling to have the loved one
there with you before the test starts so you can hug him whenever you're feeling nervous
or when you need the last good luck hug before you proceed with the test. Then when it's
over you receive your results you can immediately run up to him and share the news once
you're out of the room no matter it's good or bad. You know, that kinds of stuffs? Sigh
No doubt, he did wait for her during her e-trial test and then they had lunch together at the canteen, his treat by the way, for half an hour. Then when she had to go up for the actual test he just left even when he knew she'll be upset.
Since he wanted to leave so bad, she left him a text message saying,
"You just go home k. I'll be okay."
And you know that whenever girls say they're okay they're actually not.
But I guess it didn't occur to him that I'm actually longing for him to stay so he just replied with a "K. Good luck (K)"
Apparently, yes she failed her BTT and is retaking it on 14th August.
So she walked out of the room with nobody to look for. She did told him the results but he didn't really seem to care about it but himself being roasted by the scorching sun. Hence, that dampens my mood more.
Like you know for this kind of situations, comfort words from the loved ones is the only thing one would ever need.
So, she waited for her parents to fetch her from the centre all by herself.
She's just sad that it didn't occur to him that he's not just waiting for any kind of person but someone whom he calls his girlfriend.
Why does she always not get treated like a princess but other girls do?
Perhaps, she must get this in her head - "My happiness is only temporary."
[E]dited\
BTT IS TODAY!
Hooooow, I is damn nervous + scaaaared :\
Thankfully, baby's fetching me there woo can't wait to partial!
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
@ 8:42 PM
Today equates mundane. Just for a fact that I kept eating in school.
First break: Nasi lemak @ Food Haven
Lunch: Cup noodle + Subway's cookie + a piece of chocolate (Forced myself not to eat initally but Angeline just had to spoil the plan lol)
Otw back home: Apek's $1 ice cream
FYI - I've gained 2-3 kg lor, my god! I didn't know until Angeline and I weighed ourselves at the school's library last Friday. Trust me, we had a shock of our life! I know she know uh lol.
And now, despite the fact that I'm turning obese anytime soon! I'm craving for seaweed shaker fries. Hooooooooooooooow? Okay perhaps I shall wait till Saturday when I'm out with the boy then I munch on it again.
Basically, I've got no idea what to blog about today because nothing happened? so bear with me. My life is a bore at times you know. All I ever do on weekdays is school ---> home, that's it. Weekends ---> boyfriend all the way :))))))))
Sigh la, since I'm a no lifer I shall get back to my btt. So bye!
Oh and yes Kimira is a jointed name of me and my baby. Yes I know it's so Kimira but wth it is Kimira! Hahaha my life is all about Kimie yo! I know I shouldn't do this to myself but what to do I love him what? Yes, I love you so honey mwah!
Monday, July 27, 2009
@ 6:24 PM

PAPA GAVE ME TWO TICKETS TO CATCH NDP'S PREVIEW THIS COMING SATURDAY, 1ST AUGUST! YES, WE GOT BLUE SEATINGS! WAH LIKE FATED ONLY HARI RAYA WANT BLUE THEN TICKETS ALSO GET BLUE (Y)
WOOOOOO BABY'S SO HAPPY LIKE THAT AND I'M SO HAPPY THAT HE'S HAPPY BECAUSE I DID TELL HIM I'LL DIE DIE HELP HIM/US GET THE TICKETS SINCE HE HAS ONLY BEEN TO NDP ONCE WHICH IS DURING HIS P5 DAYS.
PREVIEW PON PREVIEW LA EH B, ASAL KAN DPT TENGOK HEH.
BOY, DON'T I FEEL ACCOMPLISHED!
I LOVE YOU, B! TOLD YA I'D DO ANYTHING FOR YOU. NAH, YOU DON'T HAVE TO THANK ME. IT'S JUST MY PART TO DO AS A GIRLFRIEND ;)
[E]dited

Guess who's back, back again? Shaker's back, tell a friend! HAHAHAHA
Okay so yes MacD's shaker fries is back since few days ago and only today it landed on my taste buds which tasted ohso savoury that I couldn't help but to ask for more. Another round tmr, Angeline? HEH
BTT is in three days and I'm anxiously nervous!
Fasting month is nearing and and I can't wait to collect my baju raya this coming weekend! I've got goldy brown + purply pink tailored whereas the fuschia + blue bought from RH. So many like that eh, because this is to make up for last year's since I couldn't really enjoy it back then haha. Semangat like anything I know lol.
Baby, lets go shopping for your baju raya soon okaaaay? Together with your mommy :)
Speaking of which, his mom accidentally called me earlier when she was actually supposed to call baby's sister hahaha.
Okay that's it then I'm off to study for my btt while waiting for my penjual ikan to come online. Me missssss you!
Sunday, July 26, 2009
@ 11:06 PM
And so, my Sunday was spent with dearest boyfriend. I went down to his place and we chilled at Balam + Happy Avenue.Lots of quality time together though we only met for three pathetic hours. I love how you brush your fingers against my hair. I love how you lock your lips with mine. I love how you grab my waist and hold me closer to you. I love how you take my hand and hold it tight.I just love every single thing that you do to pamper me, baby. Everything.Apart from all that, we, too, felt rejoiced and once again like a kid when we stepped into the playground. We played rounds and rounds of swings until our butt sored.Happy Avenue was the place we bonded and got to know each other better. Until now, it has remained close to our hearts and never will we forget that memorable place.I love you, darling. Please shower me with more of your irrisistable kisses, please? ;)
Saturday, July 25, 2009
@ 2:43 PM



Yesterday's pictures are currently in the progess of being updated in 100 mins (time check now: 11PM) time. So, you guys do the math k. I'm gonna turn in pretty soon and am just gonna leave my lappy on till the pictures are finally done with.
Oh and omg yey I'm meeting my baby tomorrow hehe yum ^^


Just look at that!
Madness, please. Yea, so that was the first day of IGNITE 2009. Massive crowd + moshing + body surfs + sweaty people + smelly body odour + I got my head kicked twice! = major headache.
Anyhow, it was awesome. Out of all, Caracal was the best! Kan, baby? ^^
Where's your boyfriend?, three people asked. Only God knows how I felt at that point of time.

Thank you Sufe, Dan & Haziq for being there to protect us girlzx.
Oh well, my Saturday will be stay home because my body's sore all over and apparently baby is still shagged from yesterday's.
Sooo, say hi to 600+ pictures! :)
Friday, July 24, 2009
@ 8:44 AM
IGNITE TODAY, WOOOOOOOOOO!
BABY'S COMING, DOUBLE WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Heh can't wait yo.
Anyway, things between the boy and I are pretty okay for now. Duh, I told you he lied! Woo, I'm so smart like that. So yeah, he admitted only AFTER several interogation and as always he swore he regretted and that he won't resort to lying it again. But OH WELL, once a liar always a liar. Kan kan? ;)
I'm a nice girlfriend, don't you think? Considering the fact that I didn't even raise my voice at him at all! despite those lies. You know I think sometimes you're ungrateful but, I kept my cool.
[E]dited\
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, SARAH ELFAC!
May your many wishes and dreams come true k! Study hard, don't be like me sitting here at koufu skipping all three meetings! Hahahahaha.
Though we're not that close, I thank you for all the times you've been there to cheer me up everytime I'm down. A simple "cheerwup" from you can make me smile already yknoooow.
Hehe k la babes, me wants to continue back eating my curry chicken with rice! LOL see you during ignite later mwaaaaah luvluv ;)
Thursday, July 23, 2009
@ 8:59 AM
All he ever do was assumed. Assumed that she'll never let him meet his friends. If he didn't try telling/asking her honestly, and thinking that the only way to meet his friends is by lying, how in the mother fucking world is she to trust?
He needed his freedom, she tried but he didn't try telling her the truth so isn't it true she's the only one trying to work things out?
First reason: Jemputan (wedding invitation)
2nd reason: Lepak ngan jiran (chill out with neighbour)
So, what's next? she wonders.
She bet it'll take him days to admit the truth.
And you know, what's better? He's always with the same group of people.
Why ah, why doesn't it ever occur to him that she's actually smarter than him?
Oh wait, those are the people he call them friends? If they are really his true friends, then shouldn 't they at least teach him to tell the truth and not pakat together?
Sigh~ she is drowned with sorrows yet again but she's still trying to work this r/s out.
[E]dited\

It's my classmate's (Si Hui) 21st birthday today. We didn't really prepare anything for her but the above because we were all more nervous about looking formal for Enterprise today.
Sigh la, Hanan and I are feeling numb today. We thought of partial-ing (Angeline too!) but then again she has yet to give me and answer. I want to go home ):
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
@ 8:35 PM
She realised that she can never be really happy again because even when the day started with happiness it'll end bitterly :)
Thus, she hereby declare, she is officially deleting every space she has in the cyber world within 24 hours.
If this makes him happy, she'll do it.
[E]dited\

I skipped school again today. Reason being ___ ___ ___ ___ ___! Hahaha go figure.
Baby already told me about it last night and so we kinda planned to meet up at his place really early in the morning.
I got up at the usual timing (had to act that I'm gg to sch in front of mom luh) and left the house at 6.30 AM. It was so windy that minutes later it started pouring.
Then I thought to myself,
"Hmm.. in this kind of morning weather to have hotcakes for breakfast sounds pretty good."
Hence, I bussed myself to Sengkang and dropped by MacDonalds to purchase two sets of hotcakes to go as a surprise. Right after, I bussed down to baby's place. Due to the slow + massive traffic, the food turned cold by the time I reached his place.
Baby fetched me from the walkway behind his place and the moment our eyes met, I held out the MacD's plastic bag into his face. Boy, was he surprised!
He went like "Omg b! Asal you beli? Baru nak mcm masak kat rumah." Hahaha. Then when I asked, "Huh, masak ape?" He replied, "maggi." Ah ye la dgr2 breakfast makan maggi pe sape ajar tah lol
So anyway yea as soon as we reached his home, we had our breakfast first while watching tv. Took photos for abit and then had quality time :) Yum yum pleaseeee hehe ^^
Baby's class starts at 10 AM actually, we realised that it was almost 10 but then heh I psycho-ed him not to go to school and yes he didn't! Thank you b, so we kinda had the whole day to ourselves which is so lovely. We should do this more often k bby! Hee
By 11 AM, we went Aljunied library despite the weather because the connection at his place was rather sucky. Spent quite some time there then had lunch at Julaiha's before heading home.
Lets skip school more often so that we can spend more quality time together kk! HAHAHA okay no kidding luh. But anyway, really, I didn't expect you to skip school for me lor. You made me the happiest today with your kisses all over. Heaven la dey! Mwaaaaaaaaaah love you
Oh and baby told me that his mom wants me to tag along for fishing this Saturday if all goes well. Wooo, I didn't think that the next outing would be so soon! Haha but oh well, I'm looking forward to it :)
You know baby, I love how your mom always think of me, as in always wants you to bring me along to such outings like this. I feel damn.. happy? appreciated? No words to describe actually, lol.
Okay that's all, me want to webcam with me luv!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
@ 8:48 AM

I met ze loverboy for an hour after school. We weren't supposed to meet luh actually but being me, I found ways to make baby want to meet me. Hehe yes I'm evil like that ;)
We greeted with a hug/kiss and chilled @ Balam. Damn long never go there already please. Haha so yea we spent the hour talking + laughing + kissing + hugging + punching + slapping looool.
I had fun luh baby, although it was only for an hour. Thanks k for sacrificing your sleeping time to meet me. Oh and sorry that I got you nothing. Perhaps, a belated one? Hehe
I miss you already. Yes, damn fast like that. ):
[E]dited\

HAPPY 19TH MONTHSARY, ME LUV!
Truth to be told, I'm running out of words to express how much I'm in love you.
It's insane what love can do, don't you think?
No matter how many times you've hurt me, I'm still right here with you. Despite all those people out there telling me that I ought to leave you because I deserve someone better, I'm still right here with you.
Wanna know why?
'Cause I have faith in you. I have faith that you'll change sooner or later. Even if it takes the rest of my life, I'll still be right here with you. Come what may, yes.
Even if there's a very charming guy standing before me, I'll still choose you. Even if there's a rich man standing right before me, I'll still choose you. Even if there's a guy that meets every of my expectations standing before me, I'll still choose you.
Because it is still your imperfections that I'm crazy for. Your irritatingness, your sillyness, your rudeness, your mean-ess, your whatever-negative-you-can-think-of, will just make me smile at the end of the day whenever I reminisce about it.
It is then I realised that it is you that keeps me looking forward to another brand new day. You're that one thing I can never live without one day.
I love you to bits, sweething. Lets last till eternity, okay? Mwah!
xoxo
Monday, July 20, 2009
@ 12:33 AM
WHY IS MY NUFFNANG CHEQUE TAKING SO LONG TO ARRIVE?!! ):
[E]dited\Don't mind our faces la hor. The left one is still in his school pe attire, dk how to go shower and get changed. The centre one just woke up from lala land I guess. Lastly, the right one is so ready for bed, that explains my pjs! Hahaha

Webcammed with baby and Maman minutes ago. Hahaha sumpah irritating cause either one of their backgrounds was super noisy yet none wants to admit.
Hehehe and now baby's all mineeeeee! It's exactly 5 hours to our 19th months! My period's over and baby's yummy. *slurpsHAHAHAHA love you![E]dited\ 
Okay, http://sherheeragh.multiply.com is finally updated!
Sorry for the super delay :)[E]dited\
Finally a picture with her! :D


Multiply will be updated, according to the timing now, 80 minutes! HAHAHA wait slowly k korangs.
OMGOMGOMG BABY CALLED! I WAS SO HAPPY (which gf will not be happy sia! furthermore she waited since afternoon, can you imagine!?) THAT MY LAPPY ALMOST FELL WHEN I WANTED TO REACH MY HP. YES, I'M SEXCITED LIKE THAT.
Hehe okay baby's online now. He came online just to chat with me because I called him numerous times till his battery went flat. Oops! Plus, he felt bad so this is the only way to make it up to me. Heh tau takot!
Okay bye, do not disturb me :)
Sunday, July 19, 2009
@ 8:43 PM

I was too drained to update when I got home last night. Since baby wasn't gonna go online as he was already half asleep while otp with me so yea I followed suit.
Anyhoo, Afternoon Mosh's was awesome. Baby performed pretty well and boy was he active like a _______. Idk what to describe him, lol. As for me, as usual, took pictures and stood one corner mcm budak bodoh lol.
It ended pretty early hence all of us went for dinner at BK eating house and right after that we headed to UOB for another camwhoring + chilling session.
By 10pm, everyone decided to head home because all penat giler babi alr so salam-ed and went separate ways.
Baby didn't send me home because he was too tired from all that so what else but to be an understanding girlfriend though I parted with him with the longest hug + kiss + the blackiest face ever haha.
And so, that's my Saturday.
As for today, I spent the day with my parents. We went for lunch at Adam Road and then to my aunt's place at Marine Parade to fetch my brother home.
From the time I was there until now, my boyfriend is still sleeping like a pig!
I miss him quite terribly already please ):
Wake up, baby. You promised me that we'll talk early tonight but yet there you go sleeping first. SIGHHHHH~
Okay la back to editing pictures. There are 300+ of them so all of you people, especially Sangres, do wait patiently. Hahaha k chao!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
@ 11:00 AM
Baby's gig today. Siannnnn~ I'm still in bed when I'm actually supposed to be already getting ready since I always have fashion crisis and will sit in front of my closet for dammmmmmmn long haha. Meeting baby in 80 by 3pm so err yey can't wait. Hopefully all goes well today.
More updates later tonight. Toodles!
To whomever it may concern:
Stop! bitching about other people's appearance unless you're THAT perfect. _|_ Trust me, don't test me. If it means punching your face then throwing you into the Spore river, I will. Don't think I don't dare just because you're ______ girlfriend's. Ha, you bloody pole!
Friday, July 17, 2009
@ 11:45 PM

- Skipped school because I just felt like making up to baby for idk what? (actually, i don't even have to lor! he's the one that's supposed to, hmphf. oh well.)
- Bought Subway cookies for baby
- Bussed down to his place and surprised him
- His jamming session was cancelled so doubly yayness
- Met his mom as she had to pass me something
- Headed to Cathay for a movie, The Haunting in Connecticut
- Had lunch at Burger King before the movie
- The show is a (Y) (Y)
- Suicide right after to chill
- Then, for a drink at some makan place
- And it's home sweet home
Too tired to elaborate since I need to tuck in soon because tomorrow will be another day. So yea, pictures of today will be up either tomorrow morning or the day after tomorrow. Nights!
Love you baby, mwah!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
@ 8:43 AM
Me: B, I'm in pain ):
Him: Abeh you nak I buat ape? (Then, what you want me to do?)
Seriously, _|_. You tell me how am I to not get sad all the time. Can't believe it's coming from my boyfriend. SIGH LA SIGHHH what fate I have to end up with him.
[E]dited\
What a Thursday, please. I fucking got my bestfriend at 4am sharp. 4am, you know! Everyone is still soundly asleep whereas I'm moaning in pain. Sigh
I'm feeling cranky, easily irritated and sleepy. Like super duperrrrrrr!
So please, all of you, think twice before you shoot anything. Or I'll just snap right in your face! That includes you, boyfriend. I can already see ourselves having more arguements within seven days.
Oh well, not like I ask for it.
At times like this la I need my boyfriend so I can punch and pinch and smack whenever I feel irritated heh miss you babyyyyyyyyy why you never miss me oneeeeee ):
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
@ 2:20 PM
I've decided not to skip school today because when I came into class this morning I saw Emma sitting alone in my team. I felt kinda pitiful to just leave her alone like that hence I postponed my "partial" plan to Friday instead.
Maybe, just maybe, I should wait for him outside school eh?! Hehehe
P/S: 6 days to 19th monthsary! (Ohmygay, another 5 months and we're 2 YEARS old!)

(exactly 1 year and 1 day ago! sweet nothings -.-)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
@ 2:28 PM

Math UT in 1 1/2 hours time. Die, never study at all heh.
I'm planning to give school a miss tomorrow because I'm too tired and and I feel like giving baby a surprise at his place. But confirm mama won't agree to it hence I think I'm gonna cabot halfway during my lunch break perhaps? mhmmm
I want a futuristic boyfriend, please! Sucks to have a boyfriend who only wants to have fun. Yes, I am just tolerating every bit of it.
Actually eh my theory very simple one lor, you want to have fun so much = don't be attached = leave me. But then again, he's so greedy to want both. Oh well, if I can curse I will. But it's because I love him, I'll just smile.
Honestly, I'm tired of putting up a fake smile.

So true right, my godddd. You rock la Azfarella lol!

And since Elfac aka Sarah wants me to blog about her as well so here it goes! Hahahaha. Yessssss, we shall take pictures this coming Saturday okay! Wear nicey nicey. Oh and I know you love my "selampu" name very much that you keep saying it to me. Haha go take the Indian quiz name now and tell me what's yours! Okay da, good luck for UT!
Monday, July 13, 2009
@ 1:12 PM
One of the many conversations I had with Hanan darling on our way to school today;
Hanan: Mom, can we go into this shop?
Hanan's mom: No, don't want.
Hanan: Huh, why?
Hanan's mom: Because it's SASA and Sasa hurts Ira so I don't want to step in.
HAHAHAHA LOOOOOOL! Her mom damn cute or what?
Sigh, Enterprise UT later. Can't be bothered cause I'm feeling sleepy and I'm missing boyfriend soooo my mind's floating.
Thursday/Friday hurry, please? ):
Sunday, July 12, 2009
@ 1:43 AM
Shahirah's says:huh!buat apaahaaahamwahShakimie's says:hello dearwhy you sad? (refers to pm)Shahirah's says:hello sygggi bersalahShakimie's says:huh?Shahirah's says:i mcm rasa bersalahi mintak ampun k syg?Shakimie's says:regarding?Shahirah's says:nothingShakimie's says:nak ckp tak nak?Shahirah's says:ye lahi tk bual2 ngn uabeh u sadShakimie's says:hahaha i am so sure it is not about thatoh wellShahirah's says:btolShakimie's says:not psl smlm ke?Shahirah's says:yeahsome sortShakimie's says:entah la eh. idk why you have this huge ego that you just don't wanna admit. idk when you will realise. i think when i die then you'll start crying for forgivenessShahirah's says::(Shakimie's says:maybe i shan't talk to you lor. when you're ready, then you talk to me.Shahirah's says: ilyShakimie's says: eh? ohhhhShahirah's says: eh lagiShakimie's says: susah nak believe lor i won't "eh" unless you admit uh Shahirah's says: btol i serious sia bby i mcm menyesal i mintak ampunShakimie's says: i just want to know you menyesal about what?Shahirah's says: nevermind syg i dont wanna talk about itShakimie's says: then sorry lo. i won't talk to you till you sayShahirah's says: Say what?Shakimie's says: kan i tanye you menyesal sorry all that because of what? because i know it's not just about not talking to me but it's something moreShahirah's says: because of me lying to youThis was five minutes ago and I'm so glad that he felt remorseful :)[E]dited\No, I can't stop these tears.Why when I'm hurting so much, you're there sleeping away?[E]dited\I am not gonna be bothered by the fact about what happened yesterday. You know you did it, but you chose to deny it over and over again. Hopefully karma hits you back real fast. Hopefully you'll get your just desserts from God.
I somehow know I've been kept in the dark for quite sometime regarding a couple of issues already. Yes, I don't know anything now, but I'm damn sure the truth will come to me in no time.
You know, to be treated like a fool is so cool. So cool that I'm gonna be a sleepless person from now on. I haven't quite slept lately, because my heart has been beating so loud and fast and this tummy always gives me butterflies. Hence, it's not a good sign.
I can't possibly share it with him because he'll never admit. If you need freedom, I need truths. As simply as that. Do not think that things can only work one way when actually it needs two.
However, now, I don't think I wanna be bothered by the fact that he has been lying (he know he did it and still doing it) and having fun behind my back all this while.
He can treat me like dirt for all I care. He can treat me like a fool for all I care. He can lie to me countless times for all I care. He can hurt me as many times because he thinks it's so cool like that for all I care. He can prioritise friends for all I care (sorry, I can't be second.).
I'll just smile and act that everything is okay so long I still have him. I'll keep tolerating whatever nonsense he can give me until he drives me to my grave. (Okay, I swear Hanan's gonna kill me if she reads this, sigh sorry Hanan, yknow I'll do anything for him.)
I just hope one day I'll catch him red handed and he'll be so dumbfounded.
And when I die before him, he'll be the first person I haunt because he makes 17 months of my life filled with only sadness.
To people, I make a good wife. But to him, I'm a bitch.
That's because he thinks friends can give him everything. Yknow like it's so cool to have big company walking you down the street. Like whatever.
It's not me that's making things difficult but I guess he made it difficult for not only us but himself.
I've warned you once, I've warned you countless times. You do something wrong to me, I don't see it but PEOPLE are watching you.
I've said it, didn't I?
Just so you know, I can't believe your words anymore. You asked for it yourself.
Run away now, yes we're close to over.
[E]dited\
We plan but we don't decide. If it fails, 'all the best' is all I would say.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
@ 10:38 PM

Okay, so indeed we went to meet the rest to celebrate Adie's 20th yesterday @ Esplanade. Pictures will be up in awhile, yes? Apologies to those who are waiting.
Anyhow, my Saturday was spent with familia and so does boyfriend. So, we didn't meet luh! Damn sad, sigh.
Mom woke me up as early as 8am please! Just because we planned days before to only register my BTT first. Hence, dad drove us to Ubi driving centre to book a date.
Thursday @ 5.40pm. I'm only taking the theories at Ubi, as for driving lessons I'll take at BBDC.
Having done registering, we went for breakfast at Bedok. Then, we went back home got changed again and left for Joo Chiat to get my mom's kains tailored. I also purchased two pretty baju raya from RH!
I suwear I walked out of the shop with a big smile plastered on my face lol. I finally got the perfect blue to be worn together with baby lor, just that baby has yet to get his.
So people, don't sibuk2 wear blue for raye okay! Hahahaha
After that, we went over to my aunt's place at Marine Terrace while we wait for dad to be done with his event. I caught up on my beauty sleep etc etc. My dad came over around 5+ and we left for dinner at Jalan Kayu after maghrib.
Then, it was home sweet home! & currently, I am just waiting for the boy to be home.
I hate it when I can't get thru him, I hate it when he's out and completely forgets about me, I hate it when I text and I get no replies from him.
Wahhhh sibeh irritating! But still, I'm waiting.
Omg b, I fucking miss you can!!!! )': By hook or by crook, I need to meet you tmr or I'll go nuts for sure.
Friday, July 10, 2009
@ 1:02 PM
I is loving W47P!Science UT in three hours time and I'm so not prepared.
Meeting baby (yes, i found him!) after school and we're gonna meet the rest to celebrate Adie's 20th birthday. Actually, we're still considering haha :D
Oh well, we'll see!
Thursday, July 9, 2009
@ 8:46 AM

Lunch break equates Angeline's birthday surprise!
The surprise went well and she was definitely touched. Awwww, I saw she teared lo! W47P is sweet, we know lol. Well, glad you enjoyed the surprise and getting entangled by the crazy ribbon sprays!
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HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY, ANGELINE WONG.
So happy that you're finally legal huh? So happy that you've finally got a tattoo huh? So happy that you got an ipod huh? Huh huh huh, you think you is so cool is it? HAHAHAHA. Okay la that was all just a joke.
May your many wishes and dreams come true! Hopefully you excel well both in touch and academically. Don't quit RP okay, cause you made RP a much more better place. No, I'm not lying. Hahaha.
You flea market reminder, thanks okay for always updating me and also entertaining me in class with your nonsense! Yes, that's it. Haha. I hope to not see anymore sulky face on you okaaaaay.
Don't worry, be happy always laaa! :D
Enjoy your day while it still lasts k? Oh and favour? Stop singing "You are not aloneeeee..." !!!! HAHAHA ass. Anyways, it's been fun walking out of school with you. Hope to go home more often with you before we change class.
Love you, Angeline. Not only me but W47P toooo! :)
HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY, ADIE!
May your many wishes and dreams come true. Enjoy :)
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
@ 1:01 PM

I thought I wouldn't get to watch Michael Jackson's memorial at all, but I did manage to catch the saddest part of the two and half hour show which was the last twenty minutes. Paris Jackson made me cry, sigh ):
I can't believe he's gone from us forever.
"You're Not Alone" has been playing on repeat, please.
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I teared the moment I saw this.Things weren't really smooth between us today. But little did I know he took the effort to draw me that on Facebook. You sweething, tell me how I can't stop falling deeper for you!I love you too, anyway (K)[E]dited\ Faiz. says:he once told me this girl very pretty. he likes and loves her very much.Shakimie's says:sape? ):Faiz. says: Ira la denggggggg!Shakimie's says:HAHAHA AWWWWWWWWShakimie's says:But why would he tell you that? When's that anyway?Faiz. says:cause he told me "pai how after NS aku nak tunang"Shakimie's says:OMG, SERIOUS? When did he he tell you?!Faiz. says:ah ni sumer undergroundShakimie's says:tsk bile la paiiiiiFaiz. says:da lame gile, when I was still in nsShakimie's says:lol but eh tell him proposal ring I want from Tiffany & Co. eh! I don't play Taka or Lee Hwa eh pls :D
Faiz. says:
golden chance, boleh?
Shakimie's says:
_|_ HAHAHA
Pai is a cb lor. Stupid soon-to-be "cousin-in-law". Hahahaha
Oh well, I miss my baby boohoo ):
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
@ 12:04 PM
I hereby declare that both Angeline Wong and I got high on kopi peng! HAHAHA. Plus, she's currently obssessed with her new green ipod!
Angeline: I am listening to my iPod now and I changed my song thrice cause the spinning thing damn fun.
HAHAHAHA, Angeline.. Angeline. Oh and tomorrow is her special day. Can't wait, await the surprise babe. Wear your thunderbolt hor so we can camwhore :D
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Break The Chain's gig (it was awesome, anyway.) and Baby's 19th advance celebration pictures are finally updated! Sorry for the long wait people but, I had my reasons okay! Hahaha ok go.
Now, for more, please view: http://sherheeragh.multiply.com
Monday, July 6, 2009
@ 8:24 AM
Yesterday, I was so sexcited to be with the boy on his special day until I woke up as early as 10am! I got all showered and ready as soon as I got out of bed. I chatted with the boy online for awhile before I left for Bugis first around 1+ pm.Initially, I thought of getting him a cap since I know he needs a new one but then again nahhh. Instead, I bought him a birthday balloon! Hehe I love treating him like a small boy.
Hence after, I trained to City Hall to meet up with the boy. He was still on his way then so I had to wait quite awhile with the balloon opposite the passenger service like a toot lol. I ran up to him the moment I spotted him from where I was standing, and surprised him with the balloon together with a hug/kiss.We walked towards New York New York, hand in hand, happy like anything. Once reached, we were ushered to our seats. Quickly looked through the menu and placed our orders since we were too hungry to waste any second lol.
While waiting, I passed him his presents and sure as hell he was one of an elated boy. Finally get your hands on them ey b?
Sorry people, but no pictures of the presents but sure will take a picture of it if he wears them out, yes :)Right after we were done, we asked one of the staffs to help us snap a picture before requesting for the cheque.


Food's two thumbs up, anyway! (Y)





Got done with the payment and went out of Raffles City because baby wanted to smoke.


Da ade marl, action -.-"Called his mom then aunt to get direction cause we didn't know how to get to the eating place they were heading to. It was at Jurong, please! Far like _____ but yea it was all worthwhile.
We reached way earlier than them and so we went to search for the eating place first. The place seemed alien to us but we managed to find it within minutes! So we waited and waited and the moment my "mother-in-law" + boyfr arrived with my "sister-in-law" + fiance and my "aunt-in-laws" + husbands, it started to pour.Before we could fully digest the food we ate earlier on, we had to consume another widespread of food! They, 'cept baby and I, ate like they've never eaten before. Baby and I ate slowly which is more likely forcing ourselves to eat as much as we can.

However, we stopped at the same time living the rest to finish up because our stomachs couldn't take in no more. Having done, we chilled there for awhile to let the food digest. Chatted with them, listened to their stories and had a great time laughing together.They kept disturbing baby because they think that it rained because he didn't bathe. Haha actually he did look like he didn't take a bath so no offence lol :PThen then after all that eating, they still could take in dessert! I swear baby's and mine were already like gonna burst but we just followed.Guess what we had?Durians, my god! (no pictures because I don't want my camera to stink of durian)His aunt offered me and I didn't had the heart to reject so I took only one. So much for taking only one, she gave me the whole quarter of it and yes I ate it all alone because baby was on the verge of barfing. -.-"Right after we were done, Kak Lynn + fiance parted from us. Baby and I hitched a ride from baby's mom's boyfr vehicle. Yes, it's a lorry and I was so lucky to sit in the front with his mom. While the rest, they sat at the back with umbrellas above their heads and that includes my baby!Hahaha so kesian sia I see him and them getting wet while I'm in the front getting sheltered.But wait, baby's mom insisted so hehe :DDropped off one by one and along the way I had a lovely conversation with my "mother-in-law". She was so cute luh I swear. She complained to me every single thing about Sasa and tells me how much she loves him all that (ah baby dgr tu! lol).Oh oh she even told me she's against Sasa riding a motorbike! Yesssssssssssssssa! Hahaha."Mother-in-law": Nanti insyallah kite kluar lagi k? (Hopefully, if God permits, we'll go out again k?)I tell you...... I was smiling from ear to ear! Hahahaha.That means I passed the first test, didn't I? HeeeeBaby was all alone at the back, under the umbrella, shivering. Initially, the plan was to drop us off at boon lay mrt station but then again his mom insisted in fetching me home so I felt that I spent more time with her than I did with baby as the journey back home was looooooong.It could have been near but uncle took the longer route to avoid traffic jam haha. Uncle didn't really know the way to my place so I directed him. Once reached, I salam-ed my "mother-in-law" and thank both her and uncle for fetching me home.Baby got off the back and was insisted by both of them to send me to my doorstep. Sweet gedegak please! Hehe. And so, we parted with a hug and a couple of kisses.
Hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday baby because I know I did. Lovely bunch of familia and most importantly, I love you :)
Sunday, July 5, 2009
@ 12:06 AM
HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, BELOVED BOYFRIEND! (^)
Da besar jgn degil k, dgr kate bini lol! Love you, mwah!May all your wishes come true baby. I hope you were really surprised by the surprise haha. Da ader rokok tu jgn take advantage pula ye? Bday nye pasal close one eye. After next week, no more closing of eyes okay.I know you didn't want a celebration but I wanted to see you happy and to have fun with your friends so that was the least I could do.More surprises tmr okay syg? Be prepared! Hahaha.I've celebrated your birthday with you twice and I still wanna be the one you celebrate with, no matter what.Today is the day I've been waiting for and I hope you'll love every possible thing that I've managaed to do for you. I apologise if it's nothing comparable to last year's but everything is from the bottom of my heart.I love you too much to care about anything else and you know it.Enjoy your day to the fullest later on with me, baby. Like they say, it's not every year you get to be nineteen yknow. Heeeeeeeeee~ Oh well, can't wait to meet your mom later!
Hehehe and now that you've eaten the red portion of the cake, I hope your buah zakar gets bigger! HAHA LOOOOOOOOOOOLThank you everyone for being there to commemorate his birthday in advance and also a belated one for Mizam & Sofie.Most importantly, thanks Iika & Dilla for accompanying me all the way home just to get the cake. Hope you guys loved it! Sorry eh if tak semeriah last year. Promise next year will be better :)
Anyway, 400++ pictures were taken so korangs tunggu okay?
Saturday, July 4, 2009
@ 11:22 AM

Looking forward to baby's performance and the "after party".
Currently waiting for the "baby" to arrive. Hehe so sexcited yum!
Okay, I'll see whoever I'll see later! Toodles~
Friday, July 3, 2009
@ 5:29 PM

http://www.mysoju.com/going-crazy-waiting/
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[E]dited\Today, I did the sneakiest thing ever!
As you people know, I tend to feel restless easily if I don't get to talk to my boyfr for a day and it's not helping when I can't even get thru him despite the countless calls and hearing the operator saying the same message over and over again.
I sound like a loser, don't I?
So anyway, my day started off with me, hanan, raf and fye meeting up @ the school's entrance but only to end up skipping school again because neither of us brought thermometers.
No thermometers equates go home so yey!
Obviously, it was a wasted trip and since it was still early in the morning, we chilled out at the coffeeshop opposite school. The boys had their pratas whereas we girls, actually just Hanan, had a drink. Till about 10+, we decided to migrate to Causeway Point and see if there's any good timing for a movie.
Sadly, there wasn't because Fye had to leave at noon so we gave it a miss and just chilled again at Banquet. Thankfully, there was wireless connection so we managed to kill half of our boredom by doing quizzes of Facebook and bloghopping.
Suke eh, Raf! lol.
By noon, Fye parted from us but we stayed on for a heart to heart talk. Awwww, hahaha. But you know fun times have to come to an end so around like nearly 1, we left the place and went separate ways.
Now, that's when I decided to give the boyfriend a surprise visit. Okay, more to a sneaky visit actually. I trained to AMK and took 135 to his place. I alighted at the bus stop opposite his block and I sat there for approx. two hours hoping that he'll receive my msg as soon as he gets out of bed but, no he didn't bother switching it on as he thought it was still value-less.
By the way, I topped up his ppd in the morning with Hanan's help. Thank you, Sunshine!
Hence, with Hanan's help again, her encouragement braved me to lift up to his house. My heart was beating literally fast as I didn't know whether to knock on his door or not. Then, I realised his room window was a quater opened, so I quietly widen the gap to see if he was sleeping.
Guess what?!
He wasn't there. Numerous thoughts were going through my mind at that point of time. The feeling was damn irritating can! So, I breathed in/out slowly, walked pass his house and settled down at the stairs.
I suddenly had the urge to call Iika so I did and she suggested I give Hairi a call. Again, I did. He told me my boyfr was online yadayada so he helped me tell him things abit and tada boyfriend went out of his house with his oh sungguh short boxers lol.
Finally, I found my idiotic boyfriend! Loooooooool.
But seriously la, the moment was funny. Only baby and Hanan knows why luh huh hehe.
Baby hadn't bathe so he smelt of air liur basi but we still hugged/kissed and he could still willingly see me home at the bus stop because he felt guilty. Duh! You ought to -.- lol!
Thank you anyway k baby.
Oh oh, he brought me good news too!!
His mom actually invited me to dinner this Sunday with his sister and aunts for his birthday celebration. Weee so sexcited lor pls. Can't wait!
Hopefully I'll make a good first impression hehe ^^
Okay la I think that's about it. I guess you readers won't even read this piece of junk since it's super duper wuper long. Oh well, bye!
(^) TWO DAYS (^)
Thursday, July 2, 2009
@ 9:23 AM
I thought I was being a nice girlfriend by waiting for his return from going out with his "mom". He told me he'll be back online as soon as possible right after he was done. And so, I waited, till now I'm still waiting.
Trust me, little did I know that he'd be taking advantage of this prepaid-less moment to enjoy. Yes, and I had to hear all sorts of things from so and so which I tried so hard not to believe.
You bet, I called from 9pm till 11.30pm. A solid two hours missed call and none was returned. Okay fine duh his ppd is low so what can I expect, right? But at least the brain should work and he should know that there is such a thing as a public phone and could have just spared me for five minutes? Is that too much to ask?
Was it too difficult to just put a 10 cent coin and dial my number to tell me "Oh baby, I'm home." and tell me what was he actually doing during the time I waited? Did I even ask him to risk his life by jumping off his corridor just to reach the public phone when there's actually a lift to transport him down?
Why does he always have to make things so difficult for me and us?
Now, I'm even starting to wonder if there was even a "mom" in the picture. And also wondering if he deserves whatever I've planned for him this weekend. You know he's just so good at crashing my hopes on him over and over again whenever it starts to get higher? That's his forte, I guess.
Right and now I can't even get myself to sleep. No good night from him, no kisses through the phone, no I love you(s) - nothing. This is why I never liked his ppd being low because all he does is take advantage of the opportunity :)
My heart is beating so fast that I might just burst any moment.
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Buduuuuuu like anything la can! Dad can't take leave tmr as he's got loads of work at the office to be completed so I'm gg to school, hoping that my boyfriend will be able to fetch me right after.
On a very sad note, baby's ppd has ran low so I can't contact him and I'm cranky because of that. I want to top it up for him but no, I can't. His birthday is coming in 3 days and I need the money.
Why? Why? Why of all times it has to be now, today, this moment, this second!? Urgh hate prepaids tsk!
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The Naked Kitchen is gooooooooood! A triangle love story. Must watch!
http://www.mysoju.com/the-naked-kitchen/
[E]dited\Despite knowing that I have to go back to school today, I skipped. Hahahaha. I'm just afraid luh, dk if the school's actually safe yet. Who knows skali today got updated news that more students kena H1N1 after returning to sch LOL. Okay no la, I'm just plain lazy and I also don't feel like gg tmr. Like two days only sia, shouldn't they just extend the "holiday" till next monday tsk.
It's either I'm gg back to school tmr or next week.
On a brighter note, my dad's on leave tmr hence he's fetching me to BBDC for enrollment. Wah like finally please! I want a car so soooooon so I won't feel lazy to go to school hehe. Want to wait for my boyfriend to get his bike license I think until Spore snow also he'll still have yet to get done with it. Although, favour luh, get a car and not a bike! It's okay if you can't afford the car, I could so you just drive my car la so isn't it better if you drive me around instead of me driving you arnd?
Now, he tells me he wants to work. Good! Because I like a career man and not a man who's so lazy and thinks that time is always waiting for him.
I mean don't you feel good telling your friends that "Oh, my boyfr's at work." whenever they ask where is he? Rather than "oh, he's at home gaming/jamming." -.- Like yknow...
Argh, I want a MAN! Please, please, please make my wish come true.

Can I say, I'm missing you quite terribly right now? ):
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
@ 10:04 AM
Wake up call conversation -
Me: Bbbbb, da kul 10, bangun!!!
Him: (made those stretching sounds) 30 minutes, please?
Me: -.- okay okay (hangs up)
Hahahaha. That's my baby for you. Every night he'll ask me to wake him up at a certain time the next morning but he'll always extend his sleeping time for either 5 mins, 30mins or sometimes can be up to another hour. His "please" eh can make my heart melt. It sounds so cute whenever he says that.
He's got jamming later on at noon at idk where so yeah. I'll be rotting at home getting done with my e-learning and since today's a fairly nice weather to sleep in, I'll hit the sheets right after I'm done.
You know I'm like so sexcited for my baby's birthday till I brought it into my dreams! Hahaha I is so can't wait to surprise him and see him cry tears of appreciation like last year. Awww~
4 days and New York New York here we come! :D

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