Yep, deleted Facebook account.

Fetched him from work + 500 days of summer + dinner @ Subway = (L)

However, sometimes I wonder when you'll stop treating your mom like that. Sometimes I wonder what do you benefit from all those drinking/clubbing and merempat hari2 sampai tak balek. Sometimes I wonder do you even have brains at all to think what's right and what's wrong. Sometimes I wonder why you love to sleep at beats when at home you've got a comfortable bed to sleep in. Sometimes I wonder if you're working to help your mom out or just for your own pleasures. Sometimes I wonder why you're wasting your youth like this. Sometimes I wonder why can't you just think for yourself instead of following suit whatever your friends do.



You just don't know how heart wrenching it is to hear your mom worried sick about you everytime she calls me when you never come home and sometimes even cry because she pities you as you lack of sleep and if you eat so little.

Sometimes I wonder what kind of a son are you. You prioritise your friends, what do you get? It's not like as if they can make you a successful person in future.

Honestly, you should have been wise enough in choosing your friends. You may not regret now but I swear you will in future.

Mussybart.tumblr.com says:
happy one month!

:(

I would personally like to thank Hanan & Azfar for spending time with me today after school. Only you guys know how much I appreciated it yeh? I love you guys damn much!

For all the times that both of you had been there for me, I sincerely thank you very much. I know I'm very stubborn when it comes to this, but you're the only ones that honestly have never gave up on me not even once. Even if it means hearing me talk only about him, him and nothing but him, you two never got tired of listening.

It's also because of you two, we bumped into my miracle. And tonight, I'll be sleeping with a smile on my face. Like Hanan said, "We're your lucky charm, Ira...."

Hey miracle, you certainly made my night a better one. ♥

I hate this heartbeat racing feeling :(

happy use to be 22month syg
i love you
:D
i janji i balik ngn you
<3

It's the 21st of this month so.......

Happy supposedly 22nd monthsary, ♥

Aku redah;

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me

This song made me thought alot about life.

How about you don't think too much about what he do
Just think that at the end of the day he is coming home to you

It just saddens me to see the one I love skipping school three days straight for no valid reason.

I still remember back then in 2007 when you told me you wanted to go back to school and asked me to pray for you in hope that your appeal will be successful. Now that you've given the opportunity, you misused it.

"Fuck education", they all said. But, why?

Everyone wants to enjoy, agree? But, I don't see why you have to give up on school. No matter how hard Spore's education gets, one should never give up. Who ever said it was gonna be easy?

We'll soon be old. Don't tell me you don't wanna give your parents a good life or at least repay whatever they've been doing for you. Then, they'll be older and retire. How are they to earn but to depend on us?

Where can you possibly go without education, seriously? What's worst you only have N level cert to fall back on. Look at life today, having an O level cert already hard to recognize. What's more N level cert? Even if you can get a job, do you want to live your life every month with only an income of $1000+ or less? Ask yourself.

You may think that life's easy for you now, yes, because your parents are supporting you. But if you reach your 30s, you still wanna live off your parents? It should by then be your turn to take care of them.

Nobody said life's gonna be easy. If it's easy, there won't even be the word 'complain' in the dictionary.

My dad always tells me, "Susah dulu, senang kemudian..."

Yes, we live only once. Live life to the fullest, everyone says. But, God gives us brains right? Why do something that can affect your future when they're MANY other forms of enjoyment? What your friends do, you also want to do. You don't even know how to differentiate what's right or wrong.

Getting called "kental" by your friends is like what you fear most. Why? If they're like your true friends, they won't even be supporting you in doing something bad.

You've not only let me down, but also your own flesh and blood, who is your mom. I really don't want to see her cry anymore. Enough of the tears that she has shed. Making your mom cry is seriously the last thing you should be doing.

What's becoming of you, I really don't know. Like your mom said, "kau belom tau kau boleh jumpe seorang sebaik ira yg slalu ambil berat tentang kau."

However, so long I have a heart, I'll always have faith in you.

Once upon a December;

I have loved you from the day we met
and I will continue to until my dying day.

We used to always sing and dance to this song together whenever it rains;

Edited by Ira

I remember the times we spent together
on those walks
We had a million questions
all about our lives
and when we got together
everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
tonight

I remember the days we spent together
were not enough
and it used to feel like dreamin'
except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I remember the time you told me that you fell in love with me
And all those things you said that night that just made me day
I remember the shirt you were last seen in
and the games we would play
All the times we spilled our secrets
and stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your future
and how not to give up even if no one believes us
When it hurts so bad sometimes
not having you here...

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

I sing,
Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
and know the stars are
holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you tonight

A Walk To Remember
Like Jamie, I want to be the girl that still has faith in you even after 10 years;

"We used to have a million questions all about our life..."

My life or rather, love life, is just like Nur Kasih's;

When he goes to Long John Silver, he'll always drink Sprite.
When he goes to KFC, he'll always drink Mountain Dew.

Because every part of Bugis reminds me of you.

When I was on the escalator, I remembered how you would always stand one step below/above me and showered me with your hugs & kisses.
When I was at the traffic light, I remembered how you'd always sit on the stool and made me stand in between you while waiting for the green man to flash.
When I was at Haji Lane, I remembered how we planned to wear white together and took pictures by the wall of graffiti.
When I was at the junction between Arab Street and Golden Mile, I remembered how you waved at me from Zam Zam happily when you spotted me while you were having lunch with your friends.
When I saw Old Chang Kee, I remembered how you'd always buy its curry puff because you just love theirs'.
When I saw Pastamania, I remembered how I treated you there for the first time and then you discovered Alfredo's your favourite.
When I saw Aldo, I remember how you love to buy gifts for me from there.
When I saw the water fountain, I remembered how we sat at Macs and watched those kids played happily with the water.
When I saw the big field, I remembered how we took a kissing picture under the drizzle.
When I saw BenQ's HQ, I remembered how I accompanied you there just to enquire about your faulty laptop.
When I saw Tong Seng, I remembered how we used to always eat there either for lunch or dinner.
When I saw the National Library, I remembered how we used to love wasting time there just to enjoy the aircon.
When I saw Zamzam, I remembered how we used to eat prata there.
When I saw Beats, I remembered how I'd always watch you perform and you'd always look out for me if I was there.
When I saw the pathway to Odiocrib, I remembered how I met you after school just to watch you perform.
When I saw Fish & Co, I remembered how I surprised your 18th with the staffs there singing you a birthday song.

:'/

I miss bus rides with you;

What makes me happy?
_ _ _ _

Go figure.

One week - of being lost;

I close my eyes and the flashback starts;

And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you, please don't go

No life after you;

It's Friday - The day I used to look forward to every week. The day I'll always rush out of class the moment my module end. The day he used to always fetch me home from school. The day he'll wait patiently at the MRT's platform and smile upon my appearance. The day I'll give him the tightest hug the moment I see him to thank him for waiting. The day we'll take a longer journey to my home just to spend quality time together. And it is also the day, no matter what kind of longer routes we take to my home, it always feels short.

Back then, it was "Friday, I'm in love." Now, my Fridays are meaningless.

Mr. Perfect might not be Mr. Right
And Mr. Right might not be Mr. Perfect

You were never perfect, that's why I love you.

"Menghitung hari, detik demi detik..."

When I saw Hanan mixing chilli sauce with mayo, I remembered how he told me never to mix it because he'd feel like vomiting at the sight of it.

I miss how you used to make me feel like I can be a kid again around you. Remember, the cable car ride, my dear? With your arms around me, we sat real close because you were afraid of heights, and said, "Baby, happy tak? I knew how much you wanted to ride this with me." With me helding back my tears of joy, I looked into his eyes, nodded and gave him a peck on his lips.

Because nothing makes me happier than just being with you. I really mean, nothing.

Shakimie - his name itself made me fall in love with him.

Suddenly, I felt a punch in my heart :'/

I wanna go to the Zoo with you again to see you smiling at the animals like a small boy;

I only got you inside my mind, you know you have made me blind.

"Though you're far away, I'm here to stay..."

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. -Ingrid Bergman

And he does it to me all the time just to make me stop nagging. Then, I'll sulk 'cause he wouldn't let me talk but when I was able to, he'll do it again. Rindu :(

Love is a burning desire,
That makes your heart light on fire,
Love is being with you,
Someone saying I love you too,
Love is your tender kiss,
Something you don't want to miss,
Love is you and me,
And that is all I see.

I su-air!

Some say love it is a river
that drowns the tender reed 
Some say love it is a razor
that leaves your soul to bleed 
Some say love it is a hunger
an endless aching need
I say love it is a flower 
and you it's only seed

- Amanda McBroom

The best way to cheer me up is by having this kind of poem under the problem statement _|_

Earlier, when I was otw to meet Angeline for school, on my iPod, Cry - Rihanna, was played. Then suddenly I remembered how he first noticed me which was through Friendster. He commented one of pictures saying, "Wanna go bed of hell with me?" and that was how everything started. It was hilarious but I can never forget that moment. Sadly no more bed of hell :(

I won't have a life anymore. It'll be school -> home. Weekends -> family. I'll get back on track once I have him back in my life. You readers might say, "he's enjoying ira! why're you suffering yourself?". Because even though we're good friends now, I can never look up to him as my friend. From the day we met, he has always been someone special to me. Hence, until forever, he'll always be.

He wanna do what now, it's his life. He wanna drink, do sinful things etc, it's between him and God. He's 19 and very well aware that we Muslims, aren't allowed to drink but since that's his form of enjoyment at the moment, he'll face his own music.

But don't worry, I still have faith in him. I'll keep praying that God will open up his eyes and heart and make him realise one day that what he's doing with his life is wrong and what a big loss he's made. And insyallah, when that day comes, I'll be smiling to myself.



Muhammad Shakimie Bin Mohamed Azmin, you're a good guy. I know you are. I know you said you still love me. You still call me syg. You still would love to meet me and hog otp with me. Yes, how can I not be happy about that?

But what saddens me most is to see the one I love deeply, which is you, forgetting his roots. No matter what, you should know that I'm always here for you. By any means, really. I would be the happiest girl should I see your name appear on my hp screen.

I'd rather go through 1001 downturns with you than be with someone that I know can never love the way you love me.

Forever and always, I love you.