Heartbreaker

Tuesday, July 29, 2008
@ 3:18 PM

Boyfriend and I slept before 11 yesterday and for that I felt super wide awake in class today. Lessons were pretty normal 'cept that I had Poa and Chemistry test. I'm very sure I'll not score well for this Poa test as I didn't quite study for it. But nvm, it's over and done with. School ended at 2 and before I headed home, I went to top up boyfriend's ppd. I called him right after topping it up to surprise him but he didn't answer. He thought they were messages and not calls so he didn't bother. -.-" Only when I was reaching Punggol he answered my call. He answered like he didn't notice anything but only did few seconds later. He went, "Eh baby da top uppp!". Hahahaha, can tell from the tone of his voice that he was very surprised, heh. No biggie aight, sweets (: Currently, I'm chatting with him online then soon I'll have my lunch and hit the sheets right after. By 5, I'll be up to catch Gol&Gincu then start studying my Chemistry/Physics once the show's over. Woohoo, and since boyfriend's ppd isn't low anymore you won't see me online till very late already.

Good day everyone ^^

Monday, July 28, 2008
@ 7:44 PM

School hours seemed so short today. Reason being, first two periods were missed due to assembly. However, there was a half a period of Physics. Got back my Physics test paper and wala! 34/40 ^^ Studying hard sure paid off. Then, it was recess. Stayed in class and ate the food I brought from home. Afterwhich was Math, did tys questions. Then was Poa and Mt. I thought of skipping Mt but didn't. Listened to Mr. Zainal rambling about the Malaysian politics this that and about boys raping girls at an age as young as 6 years old. Then we had to come up with a dua kerat pantun if we wanted to be dismissed. I couldn't think of anything appropriate so I made up some shit and thankfully was able to be dismissed.

Thus, I quickly made my way to Macpherson to meet boyfriend. Reached his place arnd nearly 3 and bumped into him at some shop near 711. I gave him a hug and we walked to Balam. As usual to eat as he brought food for us to share. In the midst of eating, he was being so random that he popped this up to me.

Him: B, I think I wanna migrate uh.
Me: Really, to where?
Him: Spain.
Me: Spain?! Tak habes2 uh dgn Spain you.
Him: I nak bukak business kat sane uh. Business kecil2 je dulu.
Me: Woah, business ape b?
Him: Business lemonade.
Me: *burst out into laughter
Him: *laughs along irritatingly

Okay nvm if you don't get it. But, HAHAHAHAHA mrepek sia b. Sumpah tak perlu gi sane buat lemonade. Kat sini da boleh, lol. Okok, after that we played sciccors paper stone - loser gets hit by winner. We played till both our hands became very red and got red dots. After realising it, boyfriend hesitated to play. He felt guilty that my hand became like that and he kept kissing it to cure it, -.-"

Thereafter, we left the place and walked around to find some other cooling spot to chill at. Most of the places were just as hot so end up we just chill at the bridge near Mint's house. While cooling ourselves down, we got to know by the neighbours' commotion that someone had committed suicide from the 14th floor. Not too sure what was the reason for the suicide but suspect he's got something to do with drugs. Sigh. Because of just one person, whole block kecoh. Even more the makcik2, hahaha. Fahfa also kepo2 ask here and there and chill out with us for awhile. By 530, I decided to go home cause boyfriend was being a pussy. He couldn't send me home so he just send me to the bus stop. Hurr, nvm used to it. Haha.

Anyway now, he's out basketball-ing with Fahfa and Mintendo! I thank you soso much for the food, drink and especially for coming online to tell me that you're gg out since you can't call/text me. Mcm gini uh Ira sukeee, sayang baby ^^

Sunday, July 27, 2008
@ 9:10 PM

I woke up as early as 10am and the first thing I turned to was my computer. I logged in and appeared offline all the way till boyfriend came online. He came in arnd nearly noon and we chatted. By like 1 he went back to his sleep again, as he feared that his mom would catch him red handed for using the com -.-" So yes as soon as he went off, I went back to my sleep too.

I was enjoying my sleep till the sound of drilling woke me up. It was too noisy that even with two pillows covering my ears were of no help. I got out of bed, walked out of my room and saw that it was Papa making the noise. He was fixing some wiring shits for the computers. Hurr! Thus, I headed to the living room for some tv.

Then suddenly, my mood just went low. I know I couldn't rely on boyfriend but still I texted him to try call me using the payphone or something, even if it's just for 2 minutes. However, just as I thought, he never did. I wanted to come online but I couldn't as brother was using and my com crashed. Thus, I studied my poa and rotted till 830 because brother has stopped playing then.

I came online, checked this and that and came to realise that boyfriend was online around 5plus! Cheebs. I then chatted with Jaja and I asked if she saw him online. She said yes and that he even chatted with her to help him text Mint something. Wth man. I thought he could like have told her to text me or something that he's online since he couldn't call, but no. At least if he had done so, I would have tried to come online. Urgh! Instead he asked about his friend than bothering about his girlfriend who was in need of him. Fuck man, where's your promise when you said "Let me be the one whispering into your ears that I'll be there for you whenever you need me."? WHERE WHERE WHERE?!!

I'm pissed and he's nowhere in sight on the list. Guess the waiting starts again. Oh, like it'll ever end. -.-

Saturday, July 26, 2008
@ 11:45 PM

I'm so veryveryveryvery extremely happy because boyfriend didn't go for his session. HAHAHAHA. So yes, I spent more than just few hours with him today. Woohoo ^^

We met up in 43 and continued the journey till Parkway. Specifically headed there just to have our lunch at Banquet as I was craving for it's ban mian so badly, heheh. Thereafter, we bussed down to Bugis as there was a gig at Beats. It was a last minute decision since we had no plans and he wanted to meet Pai so, yeah. Upon reaching, we bumped into Riri. Soon after, Fake Eyelash arrived with Qilah and Shaaa. Then, Fad and Agus came. Few minutes later, Fartwan, Adie, Yantoi, Irwan, Faris, Fahfa, Shikin and friends and Jepon came.

We chilled outside the place till the gig started. Baby and I decided not to go up when Fake Eyelash performed as we were both penniless while the rest went up. We just sat at the same spot we did from 5plus all the way to 10, haha. To kill boredom and time, we played 'magic' tricks on each other and took silly pictures.

By like 10, we left the place together with Qilah, Fahfa, Fartwan, Adie and Yantoi. They went for supper whereas we headed home. Standard routine, baby sent me home via mrt and I swear mrt rides with him is super kekek to the max yet fast. Putung Pasi, HAHAHA. Reached Punggol, I waited for his bus with him then I headed home.

Thanks for the non-stop laughter today, baby. Though we spent most of our time sitting on that tiny bench below Beats, haha :D Thanks for shielding me from that bangla's armpit, hahaha! Thanks for teaching me - "detak denteng genteng gentrrrak." But come on, I'm sure you can test me something more difficult than that? Lol. Yes, and I so prefer your spiked up hair now. No worries, you're always charming in my eyes aight. Teehee, love you (:

Friday, July 25, 2008
@ 2:30 PM

Atas nama cinta
Hati ini tak mungkin terbagi
Sampai nanti bila aku mati
Cinta ini hanya untuk engkau

I want to sleep but I can't as I've to get ready for school again in an hour's time. Sigh, if only attendance isn't compulsory. Tomorrow's the day that I've always been looking forward to because I'm meeting my gundu boyfriend, :D Not sure where we're heading to, but wherever it is I must have ban mian! Haha. However, it'll just be a short meet up as he's got session to attend to at 7pm. So *inserts word(s)* !!!

Anyway baby, if you happen to read this before I'm back, do wait for me online okay. Oh and seriously ah go top up your ppd soon. So much for not being able to contact you via cell, it's driving me crazayyy! Imyyy mcm babi la sey! :'/

Oh and read Qomarul's(click on his name) blog, he's got something for you. HAHA

Thursday, July 24, 2008
@ 12:00 AM

Happy 16th birthday, Elfac!
May today be your sweetest.
Best wishes in everything.
Enjoy your day while it lasts k (:

Wednesday, July 23, 2008
@ 9:36 PM

"Whatever it is, I rather go through hardships with you than be with someone who can give me a luxurious life."

I really meant it baby. Though you know yourself I'm a high maintenance girl, I won't mind forsaking my dream of having a very comfortable life just to be with you. I'm sorry to hear about what happened earlier on today baby. Cheer up alright. I know it's hard for you now, but eventually time will help you get over it. Everyone will leave this world one day. It's just a matter of time. Semoga arwah nenek baby dicucuri rahmat. *Al-Fatihah

Amin.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008
@ 9:55 PM

I was damn shagged today. I kept falling asleep halfway when dg work in class -.- Had 2.4 run again during pe. Because of that, it made me more shagged and I literally slept during English period. Hoho, sorry baby. I knew I promised you not to fall asleep anymore but it just can't be helped! Haha :D Then during Malay period, watched a movie since there's nothing more to be taught and we're just waiting for our results. By 1400, dismissed and I headed home straight.

I decided not to go for today's night study and just study at home instead. The first thing I did when I got home was to roll on the bed and suffocate myself with boyfriend's hood! Ahhh harum, heh heh ^^ Thereafter, I bathed and had my lunch while watching the tv. After minutes of rest, I hit the sheets. I slept at 1600 and thought I could be up by 1700 to catch Gol & Gincu but no I slept all the way till 7! Thankfully Granny woke me up cause it's maghrib or not by now I'll still be snoring away. Thus I quickly got out of bed, freshened up myself and took out my Physics tys. I studied all the way till 2100 and here I am now still waiting for that boyfriend of mine to be home.

Sighh, ask him come online 2100 plus yet he's still out with Mint playing bball and watch pple play soccer. I thought when I'm studying you could have your fun at the same time and when 9pm strikes you'll be online already waiting for me but no. Now, this is the fucking advantage when your ppd is low. I've had it, I'm gonna get your ppd topped up real soon. Gerek pur buat orang tunggu slalu. Sial uh, faster come home laaaaaaaaa! Already whole day never hear from you, rindu siaaa @!$#@%$^$ ):

Monday, July 21, 2008
@ 9:46 PM

Boyfriend was late in fetching me from school. All because of the rain. Thus, I had to wait for him at the bus stop for 45 minutes! -.- Once he reached, he walked up to me, apologised and we headed for Rasa 21 to have our lunch. After eating, we walked to the opposite CC bus stop and took 12 to Bugis. Took few pictures, shared stories and had loving time along the way. Alighted right in front of Bugis and quickly rushed to the ladies as I had to.. release my long held small business! And changed into home clothes, HAHAHA. Thereafter, we walked to BenQ's area office as he had to make an enquiry regarding his lappy. In the midst of enquiring stuffs with the person, iika called me. I accompanied her for awhile since she was feeling rather low. I'm sorry that I hung up so soon yes. I hope you're alright now baby. If you're still not, you can always call me okay. Afterwhich, we walked to the bus stop in front of Bugis Street and took 80 back to Sengkang. From there, we took 83 back to Punggol. I alighted at my stop while boyfriend made his way all the way to the interchange.

Thanks for being so loving towards me today baby. Though it's just an ordinary date, I loved every second of it. And thanks for insisting on sending me home though I told you it wasn't necessary. Heh heh. I love you big time baby and I miss making funny faces with you already, hur! Nvm, I've got his busok jacket with me now. It's so gonna be my bantal busok for tonight. Woo! 7 months & still counting, eyy <3

@ 12:00 AM

Happy 7th monthsary, baby!
Although 7 months have passed and things were up and down the hill along the way, I'm content enough that you're still a part of me despite everything that's happened. No, I've never regretted being with you. We may have come from two very different worlds but I've never regretted knowing you. Money was never an issue to begin with. It is your love that mattered most. We might have not worked out too well in the beginning, but lately we're working well enough together. Our love's getting stronger and so is the chemistry between us. One had intruded into our r/s and I'm never gonna let that happen again. I'm ready to forget everything and put it behind us thus I hope you'll not repeat and repent. I thank you for all the happy moments you've been through with me. Those laughters, picking on each other, feeding each other, pampering each other, hugs&kisses, constantly telling each other those three meaningful words "i love you" "i miss you", hogging on the phone till late - I can never get enough of all these. Never, not from you. You're the best and still the best thing that's ever happened to me baby. I would never want this to end. Not any sooner nor later. I love you till eternity and beyond. *flies kisses to you

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Happy 18th birthday, Veronica!
It's been long since I last seen you arnd.
May all your wishes & dreams come true yes.
Enjoy your day while it lasts k! ^^

Sunday, July 20, 2008
@ 7:10 PM

Webcam-ed with Iszwan earlier on today was fun! He told me something that made me felt so good after all the doubts I had. HAHA. Amyway I can see him dig nose, put his legs on the his chair like an apek, make pufferfish face, his senang hati face, dimple faced, walking around the house and twisting at the cam, smoke and making O(s) and lastly drinking water from a bottle like a overgrown baby! HAHAHA. I'll get my webcam soon la okay airhead? :D

I stayed home today. Too tired to go anywhere and besides boyfriend had a gig to attend to. So yeah, he's now at the gig and God knows what time he'll be home. I'm just waiting for him to call me using Mint's hp. Tomorrow's our 7th month and I can't wait. He'll be fetching me from school and we'll head to somewhere that I'm still unsure of. Time sure flies and I'm just glad you're still right here with me. I love you!

Saturday, July 19, 2008
@ 11:45 PM

Bussed down to baby's place and took another bus there to Bugis. Headed for Sim Lim Square first as baby wanted to make an enquiry regarding his lappy. Afterwhich, we went for lunch at LJS as I've been craving for it since like ever. While eating, we bumped into baby's ex-secondary schoolmate. HAHA kecoh eh b. Then, we made our way to the merlion to catch the ndp, again I know. We decided to walk instead of taking the bus and just when we were about to cross the traffic light it started to pour. Thank God, I brought my umbrella so we shared all the way.

We settled down at the steps although it was wet. Camwhored to kill boredom and soon the crowd started to fill up the whole area. Weather was fine throughout the beginning and middle part of the ndp until around 745. It started to pour, again. Thankfully, it didn't rain heavily so we just sheltered ourselves with my umbrella and awaited the fireworks. While the rest of the crowd went to shelter themselves under the tunnel and some did the same like us. Pretty fireworks then begun at 8. Instead of taking pictures of it, I just took a video of it. So just click the play button and watch, heh.

Soon after, we left the place and walked to Clarke Quay. Before that, we stopped by at Fullerton's toilet. Dried ourselves up and proceeded. Once reached Clarke Quay, we went into the mall. Walked around, look at the shops and finally after a loooooong time we had fried mars bar before heading home! Had it upsized and shared with baby. Done eating, we headed for the mrt. As usual, baby sent me home. Reached Punggol, baby missed his bus and I missed many of my buses to waste time with each other. Arnd 1045 then we boarded our own bus and headed home. But as for baby, he went to meet Mint to get back his ciggies -.-"

Monday, meet me babyy! 7th month oi. :D, <3

Friday, July 18, 2008
@ 9:34 PM

/Edited!

Meeting loverboy tomorrow. I can't wait, but he can't wait more. I feel so loved and missed by him lately. So much so that I feel he's so weird. Cause he isn't like before, but for the better. Sweet or whuuut, haha. Da takmo nak kembang okay syg. Aight peeps, we'll be around city hall. If see us, holla. If unsure, beep mehh (:

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY NEENA DARLING!
Best wishes aight. Stay pretty ^^
See you arnd in sch uni HAHA

Thursday, July 17, 2008
@ 10:30 PM

"Sleep well, baby. I miss you.. ):"
Boyfriend's prepaid is already loooow. No more night calls for the moment untiiil I find a way to top it up. Sedih pe hidop! Urghhhh #%@^$@^&

Saturday, hurry!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008
@ 10:30 PM

HEHEHEHE SO CUTE KAAAAN! LMAO HAHAHA. SORRY BABY I JUST HAD TO POST THIS PICTURE :D
Anyway I ended school at 1 today while boyfriend himself ended at 4. Instead of staying back in school for the night study, I went to meet him. I made my way to his place right after school and studied for my Chemistry test tomorrow alone at Balam's void deck while waiting for him to end. Around 3 plus, I received a text from him saying he was already home. I called him up and said I've already reached. He was literally shocked and quickly made his way to Balam. His house was so near to Balam yet he took quite some time to come down. I thought maybe he could have gone to take a shower first but no. Instead, he went to get me some appetizer and bbt, again! Urghhh. Haha, thanks baby ^^ Then, we exchanged stories about stuffs that happened in our schools lately. We played with each other's hairs and hit each other, HAHA. Around 5plus, he sent me to the bus stop and I headed home. As soon as I was home, parents and brother were all ready waiting for me to go have dinner with them outside. Now I'm back home all freshened up, playing the com while boyfriend's somewhere around his neighbourhood chilling with Mint and Fahfa. Aight it's time for me to hit the books again. Goodnight! ^^

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
@ 10:28 PM

Dismissed from lessons at 1230. Headed for Safra to bowl and pool with Raflee, Hisyam, Qomarul, Hafiz and Luqman. The MT LC started at 5, so we enjoyed ourselves before the ppr started and went back to school by 4. Overall, ppr was easy peasy. Ppr ended 30 minutes after and I stayed back for the night study. Studied with my classmate, Mavis, till 845. In between, I took 5 minutes rest and called boyfriend to check on him. By 9, papa fetched me home. I'm so beat and I'm calling boyfriend in just two minutes. Night readers ^^

Monday, July 14, 2008
@ 5:15 PM

|| " I'll treasure you. This heart's only for you bby. And I mean it. I'm not going to regret. In fact, I never regret. Since the first day we met, I knew you were the one for me. Even if I'm not with you 24/7, that doesn't mean I don't love you or I forget you. I may be busy with school, work or something else but I'll always love you. Marry me, baby? & Seriously, if I'm rich I'll make surprises for you. Cause I know you love surprises. Mwah! " - ♥Shakimie

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Ira: Kuku panjang ni buat pe? Buat korek idong eh?
Sasa: Ini buat korek telinga bukan korek idong.
Ira: -_____-
Sasa: B, I mcm nak simpan kuku sampai panjang uh then boleh tarok KOTEX. Eh, kutex!
Ira: HAHAHAHA ROFL KOTEX PEEEE LOL!

Don't mind our busok faces okay, HAHAHA. Well, baby fetched me from school today. He ends way earlier than me every Monday so it's a must to meet up on Mondays. Heh. I met him at the CC bus stop and we bussed down to my place. He knew I have not eaten so we had lunch at Punggol Plaza. Actually, I didn't want to eat but he insisted. Reason being, I'll feel bad having him treating me all the time. And when I said that to him, know what was his response? "I tak makan takpe, tapi you kene makan no matter what." I was touched by his words. Honestly, I did. Like he really cared about my health and such. But I really felt bad uh as he had used up his two days allowance in just a day which practically leaves him with 0 cents for tomorrow! Andddd he had to make me feel even more bad for buying me bbt! Walauuu. He lied to me that he needed the gents but instead he went to get me bbt. Sumpah surprised okay. Ugh. Afterwhich, he sent me home. Thanks for everything baby. You've definitely proved me wrong. I love you! More than I love honey green teaaa ^^

Sunday, July 13, 2008
@ 4:12 PM

*<<<-=**IszWaN**=->>>* says:
of all the couples i think you guys the best.

Baby see what Iszwan told me. Haha! Awww. Is he sweet or whaaaaaaat. HAHAHA thanks la true friend. Cheer up okay. Don't let whatever you're gg thru, bring you down. Everything happens for a reason. Learn to accept it and slowly learn to adapt to it okay. I'm sure you'll make it through. Come what may, you'll always have me, Sasa and the rest of the brocores standing by you. So fear nothing okay. Friends do come and go, but we, we'll never leave you alone. And, thanks for always being there. True friends forever and ever yo! (:

Saturday, July 12, 2008
@ 11:45 PM

/Edited!

Yknow baby if we were still dating, this very day would be our 7th month already. Heh heh, but it's okay. Our 7th monthsary is just 8 days awaaay. <3>

Towned with baby today. Met up in bus 80 and bussed all the way to City Hall. From there, we walked to Dhoby Ghaut. Walked around Cathay Cineplex and next we headed to Plaza Singapura to check how much money's available in my bank. Apparently, I'm left with a complete $0. Great or whuuut. -.- After that, we went out of that place and walked to Paragon. While walking, we saw hsbc pple distributing balloons so baby went to get himself one instead of me. Well me being me, always so pampered, I stole the balloon from him and made him fight with me for it. HAHA.

We then went up to the second last level and chilled at some benches for awhile to enjoy the aircon. After taking pictures and hitting each other with the balloon, we left for Far East. Walked around, look see look see then we treat ourselves to bubble tea! Okay actually it was baby's treat as he felt bad cause my money's all gone due to his birthday. Hurr, don't be silly. Anyway, upon reaching the stall, we bumped into Fifi, Fad and Yan. Baby shook hands with them and quickly queued up for bbt as the queue was getting longer and looooonger. Haha. He bought himself banana oreo ice blended and honey green tea for me without even having to ask me. I'm glad you know that's my favourite! Huhu ^^

Afterwhich, we walked back to Taka and chilled at the open area. Drew shits on the balloon, loving time, talked about our life and took pictures. Arnd 6 plus, we left and went back to Cathay Cineplex to meet up with Pai and Riri. While waiting, baby was irritating the hell out of me by singing so loudly! Pfft. Thank God minutes later they arrived and baby was his usual self again, rofl. We saw the fireworks from there though it couldn't really be clearly seen, we did manage to see the colourful outstanding fireworks.

After that, we left for PS as Pai wanted to withdraw cash. While waiting, we found out that Fartwan, Fahfa, Ziq and Haikel were eating at LJS so we met up with them. They said the rest were at Istana Park therefore after Riri and Pai came we left for Istana Park to meet them. When we arrived, a handful were drunk. We sat quite far from them and just chill around till 1030. By then, we bid them goodbye and left for the mrt with Fahfa, Pai and Riri. Baby and Fahfa sent me home while Pai and Riri took the red line home.

Thanks for the wonderful day, bubble tea treat, mrt fare and sending me home baby. I felt so loved today with you hugging and kissing me everywhere. I lovelovelove it! Nooow, I miss you already. Monday, faster comeee! :/

Friday, July 11, 2008
@ 2:14 PM

'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss,
I swear I could fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last.

Had a talk from the Temasek Polytechnic Business School lecturers during the CME period. Nothing new actually, just that they went into further details? Annnd, they brought my attention that I can get into TP based on interview. If I'm accepted, they won't even look at my L1B4 results and just take me in. So once the talk ended I quickly rushed home and applied. First choice: Accounting and Finance. Second choice: Culinary and Catering Management. Third choice: Apparel Design and Merchandising. Results will be out on 12 August so I shall pray hard. Hopefully, I'll get shortlisted and interviewed. Insyallah, amin (:

Anyway, after this I'm gonna have lunch, bathe then head back to school for night study. My Fridays are totally out. I'm totally packed with school so don't ask me out. Besides, every Friday baby has school till like 6 so we can't meet cept on Saturdays and Mondays. Well thank god. At least, he'll be in school and not merayaping. Haha. He'll be having his jamming session at idk where from 7 to 8 later. And noooow, I'm just waiting for him to text me that he has ended school.

Tomorrow, I'm meeting babbyyy. Omg, finallyyy. Nak kiss, nak kissssss! ^^

Thursday, July 10, 2008
@ 9:55 PM

School's a drag today. I felt so restless throughout that I kept falling asleep in almost every lesson. Lessons ended at 4 today. Last lesson, I had an English Mock Test and baby miss called me! And guess what? I called him back even though the test have not ended. Having done with the paper I quickly rushed to the toilet and called him back again then to the posb at 201 to deposit money. Afterwhich, I went back to school to attend the night study. I had to or noooot, baby will start his 'confirm? ke confuse?' HAHAHA. However before the study session started, Jacqueline and I talked about stuffs. Stuffs that we've never talked between us before. Just so suddenly, we talked so much to kill time. We've known each other since Sec 2 and had been in the same class since Sec 3 and just now was the only time I really sat down and talked with her. Though I must say we are not that close as before but she gives the best advices and shoulders to cry on when I'm in need of someone. Thanks Jacq, for hearing me out and the endless advices. I know you'll read my blog so heh heh you can come to sch tmr and say "Shaa, I read your blog!" lol. Anyway, baby's having his session now. Idk what time he'll be back but I just hope that he doesn't come online to habbo and make me wait for his call even longer! Pssh. I miss you pig! Saturday we take neoooprint okayy? Kawaii nehxzxz! ROFL

Wednesday, July 9, 2008
@ 4:00 PM

School ended at noon today. Well supposingly at 3pm, but i skipped mt epp as I don't see the need to attend it when I'm already done with the papers. Anyway, I'm not attending tonight's night study also because it's on humanities and I really loathe that subject. I would rather fall asleep on my bed than on the study benches. Hahaha. Woohoo, it's 4pm! Baby should be on his way back home from school now. Hurry call meh, imyyyy :/ Anyway I was browsing my picture folders and I came acrossed this.

Remember this day baby? The day I cooked your favourite dish and fed you by the beach. I miss those times. I sorta flashed back on our past. We were literally very happy back then, even with those little arguements we had. I swore to the only one and mighty above that I couldn't ever find a replacement for such a gem like you. You turned my whole life to a complete 360 degrees change. You've had never made me happier and you treated me like an angel. However, time changed everything. You betrayed my love and almost ran with another. I was kept in the dark till the day of truth revealed itself. You left me hanging and speechless with your self denial. I knew at that very moment that I should have left you, and not even take a look back. But, I couldn't bring myself to. All because, I had faith in you. To see those tears rolling down from your eyes from the moment I said I couldn't trust you no more, I knew it was me you loved all along. Up till today, I still have faith in you and I love you all the same after all the unexpected obstacles we had gone through. Nevertheless, I'm weak. Honestly, I couldn't really erase that incident from my mind. It's just hard. That's why I'm only genuinely happy and only feel ultimately safe when you're by my side with your arms wrapped around me. But lately, with you always kissing my hand and say "b, marry me?", I can safely say that I do feel how important I am in your life. Till death do us part baby, this heart it beats for only you <3

Tuesday, July 8, 2008
@ 9:40 PM

I'm all about you,

I'm all about us,

No baby, you never have to question my love.

I'm starting to love school more, idk why. Well I must since it's the major year, hahaha. Anyway after school I met up with boyfriend for lunch. He had no transport cash so I went down to his place. In return, he treated me lunch since I've not eaten the whole day and I'm totally broke. Huhu, thanks baby. Thereafter, we went to Balam for some loving time. Baby missed me taking out all his blackheads for him, so I did. HAHA. Soon after around 445pm he sent me to the bus stop and I headed back to school for my night study. I didn't want to attend actually but baby scolded and forced me to. Hurrr. However, it was productive and so I'm gonna keep attending every night study. Cept Monday, maybe. Okay baby, don't scold please? Rofl. Anyhoo, thanks for it baby. Only you know, I know. Heh heh, aight I need to get showered and study for my poa test tomorrow. Night humans! Oh, and I love B1 as much as how monkeys love their bananas! ^^

Monday, July 7, 2008
@ 10:26 AM

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HABBO ISAP BUAH GAJAH PLEASE. ALL TIME BOYFRIEND STEALER. BOYFRIEND PLAYS AND IGNORES ME. FROM HALF AN HOUR DRAG UNTIL 10 MINUTES SUBSEQUENTLY. BAEK PUR. SUKE AKU DIBUAT BEGINI. AND ISAP BUAH SASA LAGI SEDAP OKAY. HAHAHA SIAL AH KAU MUS. COMMENT TAK PERLU OI!

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Baby's learning to play this song for me! Awww sweet or whuuut you pantat. K la k la, wait i treat you apek ice cream okayy. Anyway, you still owe me and adek an ice cream each okay! :D
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It's not about what's your or my definition of love. It's not about let bygones be bygones. It's about t-r-u-s-t. I mean like what's love without trust right? I know you can trust me but sadly I can't. Not that I totally can't but just not that much. Up till today, I still hear rumours about you. I'm not saying I believe them but it's good to be cautious isn't it? I know you kept telling me you love me this that, but those are just words. I think I remember telling you everytime that action speaks louder than words. But, you never know how to show it. If just by sending me home everytime lately and showering me with your hugs and kisses proves that it is only me in your heart, try harder baby. Cause I'm really hard to be pleased and be with. Well I know I do say I love you alot even if it just means repeating when we were otp, but I meant it and you believed me. Why? Because I never said ily to any other guys cept you nor do I ever lie to you even for the slightest things. I know it's history but history can repeat so I fear. I respect you as not only my boyfriend but as my future husband and the future father of our kids. I thought having you with me I could change you. But naw, you're not as easy. Am I giving up? No. I gave you chance by chance to make it up to me but I just don't know when I'll truly trust you. Because sometimes I give you face you step on my head twice. Thus don't blame me baby, you asked for it. And I swear you're lucky to have me because if it's other girls they'd have left you long ago. I always believe that love's patient and kind. That's why I'm still here so true and faithful to you. I believed that we could last if we learn to co-operate along the way no matter how rough our time may get. Doesn't that sentence seems familiar to you, baby? Hopefully it does, because you said it.

Oh well, baby's in school now. First day of the new semester seemed alien to him as he texted me saying that he didn't know where his class was. Hahahaha! Baby, baby.. Mcm 8 year old boy, padahal da 18. I'm not quite sure what time he ends everyday now, but he'll text me once he's got his time-table.

I: B, can you not leave me? ):
S: I won't baby. I promise.
I: But, we'll never know what's coming for us 10 years down the road ape.
S: Down ke up ke, all I know is it's you I wanna be with and it's you I'll never leave.

Ahhhh, I love you! *jumps and hugs/kisses you

Sunday, July 6, 2008
@ 6:25 PM

"be a good girlfriend to Ira"

Sumpah itu phrase tak perlu. Oh and ada hati lagi nak call my boyfriend 'dear'. Thought I wouldn't and couldn't find out? Intro open inbox je namanya. I'm perfectly fine with the birthday wish part but not the 'dear' part. I can't accept it. All I know is that only me and his mama can call him that. Others, Sasa or Kimie. And guess what, he's deleted you off his contacts just for me. Honestly, I never really liked you at all. The good luck for my O levels from you wasn't expected nor was it necessary. Well I could have been nice to you but not after what you did. So I reckon you stay far far away. Thank you very much. (:

Saturday, July 5, 2008
@ 11:45 PM

Baby's 18th birthday was spent at Fish&Co and Singapore Flyer. Surprised baby together with the Fish&Co people singing their birthday wrap. HAHA! After eating, we went to Cheers and I bought him a pack of ciggies. Then we spent the rest of our time at Spore Flyer. Took pics this and that and watched the ndp thingy while waiting for our turn to ride. 15 minutes before 730, we went in. We were needed to take a picture before heading into the cabin. Once we reached the top, I must say spectacular view at night. It was a 30 minutes ride and after we alighted from the cabin we went to purchase the picture.

In the midst of buying we heard the fireworks! Quickly dashed our way to the first floor to catch it. Really a beautiful ending to end his birthday with. Thereafter we walked all the way to City Hall and took mrt home. Baby sent me home and since we knew we wouldn't get seats if we had boarded from Dhoby Ghaut so we bounced back all the way to Outram to Harbourfront then to Punggol. Out of the mrt, I topped up his prepaid like finally then we chilled at some steps outside the mrt till 1030 for some loving time. And, it's home sweet home. Hope you loved the day baby. I love you, I love you, I love youuuuuuuuu! <3

@ 12:00 AM

HAHAHAHA GAMBAR STOP IT I KNOW. LOL ANYWAY THIS IS SASA HOW MANY YEARS AGO IF YOU MUST KNOW. ROFL ^^
Anyway, happy 18th birthday dearest boyfriend. Bet you're over the moon now for you're finally legal. Can smoking smoking here and there, can watch M18 movies and can take car license! Damn, nvm I'll catch up with you in 8 months time. Haha. I wish you the very best in everything you do aight. Study hard and chase your dreams. I know how much you want to live in a 3 storey house and how much you want your future kids to have an extremely good life so work hard for it. You're no longer a youth no more, but a responsible adult. Complete your ITE years, then you can serve the horrible NS and continue back with your studies yeah. Stay happy always and be a filial son to mama. I hope you loved the surprise and had fun with all of us just now. Tomorrow will be another long day with just the two of us. Hopefully this is the best birthday you've ever had. If not, next year's will be better. I love you so baby, that's why I went to all these expenses just for you. And lastly, just hope I'm still the girl you'll be celebrating with on your every birthday-to-come! <3

Friday, July 4, 2008
@ 11:45 PM

(That big surprise ^^)

I think I shall just let the pictures do the talking? Haha yes. All in all, the surprise was a success. I thank all that came down and made the birthday so happening. It touched/meant so much to Sasa that it brought him tears of joy. Singing him a birthday song as soon as he was unblinded, sprayed him with so much snow slash crazy ribbons, seeing him blowing off the candles again and again, reading his birthday card and watched him opening his presents together and lastly taking so many pics together made his 18th birthday the best. I hope all of you loved the cake and had ultimate fun together. And baby, keep the guitar well and better keep the promise you made to me last night. I love you to bits and pieces and all of you so much. With me in your life, you'll never stop getting surprises. I can promise you on this! Heheh. Oh and remember, you're 18 not 8 anymore. Hurry get your license so I/we won't have to take public transport anymore! :D

@ 12:00 AM

Happy 16th birthday, ~~Zain~~Hafiz!
Enjoy your day while it lasts.
Best wishes in everything choir boy.
And, all the luck for O levels.
Staaaay crappy! :D

Wednesday, July 2, 2008
@ 9:52 PM

Getting to contact the boyfriend only via the msn, sucks big time!
I miss his 'eh you bacin', 'mehh sini mehh' and irritatingzx laughter.
Get your prepaid topped up real soon please. I miss our late night calls. ):

Tuesday, July 1, 2008
@ 7:11 PM

It's the first day of a new month and I had my O level Malay Oral at St. Hildas. It was so-so, I guess? Apart from the fact that I waited for approx 2 hours for my turn! Hurr. Period's got my mood all tangled up. And you, you just had to make it worst. I'm literally tired plus irritated with all your lies. To top it up, you had your friend to lie with together. How great, you never fail to make me happy. Do it once more and you'll know the outcome. This time, I'm for real. Because, I was never a fool to start with, and what's more to end with.

Sighzxzx